It really does.
I can't see the screen through the tears, but I'm doing it online because there's only one thing worse than online headstone shopping, and that's in-store headstone shopping.
I have put it off forever because I knew it wouldn't be fun. I put it off because its a big deal and I haven't had the energy to put into it because I knew it was going to be hard. I knew it was going to be a challenge to find something that was just for her.
And you know what? I was right.
Because there's nothing pretty enough or good enough.
Because headstones aren't for babies.
Because you can't fit her story onto a piece of stone.
For all those reasons and a thousand more, its hard.
But we need one.
So its a deep breath, and its eyes closed, and its putting my heart and my hand in His and trusting that somehow, some way, He's going to lead me through it, and we'll pick one and it will be perfect and the tears will turn to peace.
...even there Your hand will guide me,
Your right hand will hold me fast.
Psalm 139:10
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